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I'm not lying. I'm not. I'm going to be straightforward and explain some things as simply and directly as possible.
It was back in 2009-2010 or so, I was on Sprit Crusher's squad chat, drunk, and high, and I wrote, in red, "I bleeped a dog." I admit I wrote that in the squad chat during a long chat silence, and that statement was followed by a long chat silence. I said it expecting staff to respond to me because whoa, who the hell says that out of nowhere. I expected staff to ask me wtf, why the hell would I say that? What is wrong with you? directly, right?
I expected there to be some kind of response from staff about what was said. I was, after all, on a squad participating in TWD games. I figured they'd at least clear it with me about why that was said, I mean...was I hacked? Did somebody come behind me on my computer and type that? I mean, that, among the obvious reasons of administration requirements, was a reason to get clarification from me first about why that occurred, to give me benefit of the doubt, and to protect the game from my fuck up. I admit it was a drunken fked up thing to say to get a rise out of somebody and cause them to ask me wtf, but, they did not. I swear it, not one mod, not one staff, not one player, no one spoke to me about it.
Two years later, on Trench Wars Radio, before approximately 70 people, it became announced news, and they told everyone on the Radio that day about me saying that. Out of nowhere I find this out. I wasn't even there to defend myself or to speak out against what was said. I can't believe it was allowed to be used in that manner instead of me telling staff the abuse story I was referring to and blurted something fked up about to a squad chat one day.
I was 12 years old. By then I witnessed a dog be sa'd. One of my rabbits was named "Marquis de Sade" by my mother and she explained it was because he ripped out their fur during breeding. And how, if she was a madame at a brothel, she would treat her girls so well, and protect them with bouncers and testing and so on. Anyway, so that person also did nothing about my brother sa'ing a dog in broad daylight on their bedroom floor for anyone who walks in to find, lights on and everything. She did nothing about it. So I was 10 or so when that happened. When my mom acquired a computer, I ended up in a beastiality chat room. I found it on Yahoo Chat, under their BDSM section if I recall. I was there to find out more information about why people are into that, not there in support or in want of the interaction, on that I swear. I had no one to talk to about it. So finding out things from people maybe who were abused talking about it could have been helpful.
However, I, instead, encountered a couple there who were able to talk me into giving them my phone number. They made sure to state that I was 12 to them on the phone again, which made me realize it was probably recorded by them for "blackmail" purposes? Either way, they proceeded to abuse me, tell me how they wanted me to abuse a dog, about its anatomy, about how it's a good thing, and good for me, and so on. They wanted me to do all manner of things to a dog, and told me about that to me while I listened in silence for I guess 7-8 minutes. A man and a woman on a call together abusing me together. I did only part of what they wanted me to do later when puberty set in. That's how young I was. And only a handful of times before I had to define for myself that I am surrounded by animal abusers and sex offenders, and they're trying to turn me into one too. Since no one, and I mean no one defined it as abuse in my life, and even condoned it, I had to set the boundary for myself and it changed how I viewed everyone in my life. They're all sickies and perverts. Too many of them.
I escaped to a place that I thought was going to be hell, but turned out to show me that I really lived in a fked up home and survived some things. There's more to the story than that, but, that's the story of the animal abuse in that context. I have reported it to authorities. It's not some perversion, I was not caught running a site or making pornography or whoring myself out to anyone, ok? No sir, no, that isn't how it is at all.
So, had staff actually done their due diligence and asked me wtf, Fem.? about what happeend, I would have told them sorry, I was fked up, and trying to talk to someone about abuse while intoxicated, and it could have been resolved. It could have been told to people "Fem. needed to talk to police, it's handled." and that would be that. But, nah, that didn't happen.
I believe I was abused by what might have been the Epstein syndicate, and I'll tell you why, though it's merely a possibility:
There is an island nearby where I"m from called "Dog Point Island." I was in that chat room with no VPN and dial-up. I'm sure it wasn't difficult to find me if they had the means. I say this because they so confidently abused me that I thought they really are taking that risk. I realized it's because I think the area I'm from is associated with their syndicate somehow, likely through that point, in reference to "Dog Island" and so on, and because they made sure I was 12 before proceeding, I realized it was probably blackmail for one of them. They confirmed I was probably from the "syndicate" because of my location is my guess.
Anyway, stop calling me a "dog fker" and stop threatening to rape me.
It was back in 2009-2010 or so, I was on Sprit Crusher's squad chat, drunk, and high, and I wrote, in red, "I bleeped a dog." I admit I wrote that in the squad chat during a long chat silence, and that statement was followed by a long chat silence. I said it expecting staff to respond to me because whoa, who the hell says that out of nowhere. I expected staff to ask me wtf, why the hell would I say that? What is wrong with you? directly, right?
I expected there to be some kind of response from staff about what was said. I was, after all, on a squad participating in TWD games. I figured they'd at least clear it with me about why that was said, I mean...was I hacked? Did somebody come behind me on my computer and type that? I mean, that, among the obvious reasons of administration requirements, was a reason to get clarification from me first about why that occurred, to give me benefit of the doubt, and to protect the game from my fuck up. I admit it was a drunken fked up thing to say to get a rise out of somebody and cause them to ask me wtf, but, they did not. I swear it, not one mod, not one staff, not one player, no one spoke to me about it.
Two years later, on Trench Wars Radio, before approximately 70 people, it became announced news, and they told everyone on the Radio that day about me saying that. Out of nowhere I find this out. I wasn't even there to defend myself or to speak out against what was said. I can't believe it was allowed to be used in that manner instead of me telling staff the abuse story I was referring to and blurted something fked up about to a squad chat one day.
I was 12 years old. By then I witnessed a dog be sa'd. One of my rabbits was named "Marquis de Sade" by my mother and she explained it was because he ripped out their fur during breeding. And how, if she was a madame at a brothel, she would treat her girls so well, and protect them with bouncers and testing and so on. Anyway, so that person also did nothing about my brother sa'ing a dog in broad daylight on their bedroom floor for anyone who walks in to find, lights on and everything. She did nothing about it. So I was 10 or so when that happened. When my mom acquired a computer, I ended up in a beastiality chat room. I found it on Yahoo Chat, under their BDSM section if I recall. I was there to find out more information about why people are into that, not there in support or in want of the interaction, on that I swear. I had no one to talk to about it. So finding out things from people maybe who were abused talking about it could have been helpful.
However, I, instead, encountered a couple there who were able to talk me into giving them my phone number. They made sure to state that I was 12 to them on the phone again, which made me realize it was probably recorded by them for "blackmail" purposes? Either way, they proceeded to abuse me, tell me how they wanted me to abuse a dog, about its anatomy, about how it's a good thing, and good for me, and so on. They wanted me to do all manner of things to a dog, and told me about that to me while I listened in silence for I guess 7-8 minutes. A man and a woman on a call together abusing me together. I did only part of what they wanted me to do later when puberty set in. That's how young I was. And only a handful of times before I had to define for myself that I am surrounded by animal abusers and sex offenders, and they're trying to turn me into one too. Since no one, and I mean no one defined it as abuse in my life, and even condoned it, I had to set the boundary for myself and it changed how I viewed everyone in my life. They're all sickies and perverts. Too many of them.
I escaped to a place that I thought was going to be hell, but turned out to show me that I really lived in a fked up home and survived some things. There's more to the story than that, but, that's the story of the animal abuse in that context. I have reported it to authorities. It's not some perversion, I was not caught running a site or making pornography or whoring myself out to anyone, ok? No sir, no, that isn't how it is at all.
So, had staff actually done their due diligence and asked me wtf, Fem.? about what happeend, I would have told them sorry, I was fked up, and trying to talk to someone about abuse while intoxicated, and it could have been resolved. It could have been told to people "Fem. needed to talk to police, it's handled." and that would be that. But, nah, that didn't happen.
I believe I was abused by what might have been the Epstein syndicate, and I'll tell you why, though it's merely a possibility:
There is an island nearby where I"m from called "Dog Point Island." I was in that chat room with no VPN and dial-up. I'm sure it wasn't difficult to find me if they had the means. I say this because they so confidently abused me that I thought they really are taking that risk. I realized it's because I think the area I'm from is associated with their syndicate somehow, likely through that point, in reference to "Dog Island" and so on, and because they made sure I was 12 before proceeding, I realized it was probably blackmail for one of them. They confirmed I was probably from the "syndicate" because of my location is my guess.
Anyway, stop calling me a "dog fker" and stop threatening to rape me.
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