Thoughts of suicide.... and alot of depression going on in my life

[paradise!]

poutine turned out to be better than I thought.

[curse]

Gal you bout done yet........

Bout to make u commit suicide irl.

anyways my confidence in dark is back fucked dice up good so allow self esteem 2 go sky rocket ups. Dun vs me in elim unless u wanna get str8 raped hard too.

[L.C.]

Man up and get with the program. Whether or not you think there is life after death, consider the unexpected and inevitable to be possible. There would be no recovery if you turned out to be wrong. Period.

That, or.. you're just an animal. Life has a 100% mortality rate, which makes fatality our fate. We live, reproduce, and die. Nothing more said and done. Your loss will mean absolutely nothing to the world around you (and to those closer to you, they'll move on sooner or later).

Of these two paragraphs, which do you prefer?

[Squeezer]

only cowards commit suicide, real men go out in style

According to Camus you're incorrect. The famous Frenchman would have called you a pussy for waiting it out and told you that suicide is the only true freedom that a modern individual can attain. I believe his most famous quote is something along the lines of suicide being the only true fundamental question about existence.

In other words, we'll never know why we are here or what purpose man has within the cosmos, if any. Likewise, it's unlikely that we'll ever be clear on how humanity came to be, well...human. We cannot guess where we fit because we can barely comprehend beyond our own individual consciousness and all of the other forces that bombard us with differentiated messages, our understanding of the world being responses for Pavlovian conditioning enacted by structures larger than the individual which challenge our perceptions of emotion, pleasure, love, reason, etc. With that in mind, the only true freedom and control man has in life is to choose when and where to end his own existence despite, or perhaps to phrase it more harshly, in the face of all the oppositional forces that favor survival to continue the existence of their institutions. Every institution needs able bodies to operate and suicide is a form of biting the hand that feeds these larger superstructures. Faced with the absurdity of existence (a term he coined), man has to endure a daunting amount of bullshit. Where that bullshit comes from, no one can say, but it can be remarked that most of it is out of our control. We do not control promotions or worldly states of affairs (unless your name is Barack Obama). We have no say in the mortality of others. Bad things happen; good things happen. Order hardly exists as much as happenstance. Some would say that we can't even fathom the depths of our own states of being/emotions, much less garner control over them. At any moment a meteor could strike the Earth and end all life without the Universe batting an eye. Someday our Sun will engulf everything.

All of this will happen whether we will it or do our best to oppose it and some things that we absolutely need to happen will fall short of materializing when we need them. I'm being long-winded, but what I'm trying to get at is: life will always surprise us whether we'd like it to or not. These forces have control, we do not.

Just the same, every one of us will eventually die. No one knows for sure what lies beyond that, but one of the baldfaced truths about being alive is that the ride comes to an end at some point whether you're prepared or not. Suicide offers the chance to have some stability. Instead of allowing one's self to be at the mercy of forces that cannot be controlled, life becomes corralled. It comes to be at the mercy of the individual and is totally under the thumb of the individual's impulses. To kill one's self is to make life one's bitch.

Not saying that's my opinion, and Camus died in a car accident before he could back his opinion up, but there it is. In the minds of some, suicide is not cowardice, but the ultimate form of empowerment.

Sorry for threadjacking, I just wanted to type something long and convoluted after my week of justified bannination (Hi Stargazer!).

edit: And I'm particularly proud that this is post #7500. Good round number for the most depressing thing I think I've written on these forums. Well, except for my lame excuses to try and save my neck in mafia.

[Jason]

existentialism keeps me up at night

a lot

and them i'm tired

of being so tired

and of simply being

[curse]

rofl u all are real cute. writing books and stuff 2 me.

[Ara]

Suiciding and going out with style are the same thing. If you take your life due to some institution you are infact not using your power but are a victim. Camus was a depressed guy and in his time it was fashionable to fight against the system.

[curse]

ok since this topic was clearly for jokes now people r "SERIOUS BIZ" so i'll allow this hilarious topic 2 continue.

[Jerome Scuggs]

damn i had bw3s last night and just took a poop and i feel like i was violated by a pineapple.

blazin' or you are a wimp

(not really that shit will make even my asshole bleed)

[RATTY...]

only cowards commit suicide, real men go out in style

4chan.

[TagMor]

sometimes I cant tell whether these forums are a medium for random parody of human behaviour, or people really are this gay.

[Ayano]

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[Material Girl]

Winston Churchill once said, "If you are going through hell, keep going".