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This time it was for making ONE comment to Luxe saying "I Hate You" in response to her saying "I'm Leigh and everything I've done and said here was a lie and I put you under my spell".
I was otherwise spamming the lounge part of the forum with psychiatric topics relating to my paranoia and recovery as I am staying in a psychiatric rehabilitation center here in Ottawa called Salus on Fisher Avenue.
The original source of my paranoia when otherwise fine was a location in a park like area on the experimental farm outside my house and across the street where I have began treasure hunting with whoever is going there. The events and phenomena I've witnessed there have lead me to believe that Leigh is the one going treasure hunting there like she did in Orleans and also that Leigh could be the player Luxe from Extreme Games.
However, this kind of paranoid conspiracy theorizing is what has lead me to be instituted in the first place... the only difference is that Luxe and the treasure hunter here at Fisher are both provoking it in my mind's eye.
So now I've come to trench wars because I appreciate a place where I can discuss the issues on my mind as they bother me and occur in total freedom inside a supportive community of friends as we are encouraged to do in a process called peer counselling but it's only a little different in person then online in a place like these forums.
I'd ask you all to be calm, relaxed, honest and patient with me as I have been instituted 4 times so far since 2007 for schizophrenia due to me thinking there was a conspiracy involved in my life regarding this one girl somehow and that perhaps she read a love long I didn't write about her but that she thought I did and was already waiting for me to make my first move upon her.
It's been embarassing, frustrating, stressfull and irratating a lot of the time to be this paranoid for a really bad reason... mostly due to hallucinating gossip and rumors in my wild imagination.
There is one cute girl currently staying here at Fisher that I am interested in called Jalena who was treasure hunting at the spot I referred to at the beginning of this thread but stopped and an even hotter one coming to move in in about a week or two. I look forward to what I might do with either of these girls in the time to come but otherwise just talk to one older more mature girl called Penny in the smokers lounge while I avoid the others and most staff at my stay at Salus Fisher in Ottawa.
My current resolution is to stop treasure hunting all together because whoever is doing it is really causing a lot of problems and paranoia in my life and it's getting expensive... while providing me with no relief to my symptoms or cash prize or anything for all the gifts I give in return. Getting banned from EG Forums also helped with the anxiety I was having at that exact moment in regards to Luxe.
HELLO TW,
Where's ZXVF, Mossad and Leland?
They are my 3 lovers I've idetified in TW... oh and Michelle!!
I was otherwise spamming the lounge part of the forum with psychiatric topics relating to my paranoia and recovery as I am staying in a psychiatric rehabilitation center here in Ottawa called Salus on Fisher Avenue.
The original source of my paranoia when otherwise fine was a location in a park like area on the experimental farm outside my house and across the street where I have began treasure hunting with whoever is going there. The events and phenomena I've witnessed there have lead me to believe that Leigh is the one going treasure hunting there like she did in Orleans and also that Leigh could be the player Luxe from Extreme Games.
However, this kind of paranoid conspiracy theorizing is what has lead me to be instituted in the first place... the only difference is that Luxe and the treasure hunter here at Fisher are both provoking it in my mind's eye.
So now I've come to trench wars because I appreciate a place where I can discuss the issues on my mind as they bother me and occur in total freedom inside a supportive community of friends as we are encouraged to do in a process called peer counselling but it's only a little different in person then online in a place like these forums.
I'd ask you all to be calm, relaxed, honest and patient with me as I have been instituted 4 times so far since 2007 for schizophrenia due to me thinking there was a conspiracy involved in my life regarding this one girl somehow and that perhaps she read a love long I didn't write about her but that she thought I did and was already waiting for me to make my first move upon her.
It's been embarassing, frustrating, stressfull and irratating a lot of the time to be this paranoid for a really bad reason... mostly due to hallucinating gossip and rumors in my wild imagination.
There is one cute girl currently staying here at Fisher that I am interested in called Jalena who was treasure hunting at the spot I referred to at the beginning of this thread but stopped and an even hotter one coming to move in in about a week or two. I look forward to what I might do with either of these girls in the time to come but otherwise just talk to one older more mature girl called Penny in the smokers lounge while I avoid the others and most staff at my stay at Salus Fisher in Ottawa.
My current resolution is to stop treasure hunting all together because whoever is doing it is really causing a lot of problems and paranoia in my life and it's getting expensive... while providing me with no relief to my symptoms or cash prize or anything for all the gifts I give in return. Getting banned from EG Forums also helped with the anxiety I was having at that exact moment in regards to Luxe.
HELLO TW,
Where's ZXVF, Mossad and Leland?
They are my 3 lovers I've idetified in TW... oh and Michelle!!
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