*lowers voice and the time beyween words is long*
hey guys....
i have some tragic bnews : yesterday my girlfriend of 6 years, we were about to be married on Christmas Eve it was so romantic, tragically yesterday she died in a helicopter crash. According to the pilot she ejected herself. I am truly heartbroken that there was nothing I could do to stop it. I never thought that something like that could ever happen to me, and I feel so crushed. Why me. Why me. I haven't even been a perfect person, and yet this huge burden is put on me. I only had good intentions in my life but I did what I needed to survive, truly the world is a maddening place is it not? So I sit here, alone and totally changed, and why? God did this? I will bring this 'God' into question for ever and ever, how can there be a power that lets such a thing exist?! I feel like I'm going to become a buddhist monk or something, because there are other parts of my story you do not know, as I said I'm not a perfect person. Pain, I feel pain. Yet nothing hit me. Forever in my life my love to be is just a memory. It's been so long I don't even remember, was she real? The extent of my depression and agony knows no bounds, truly I am changed from this day forward. I am angry. I am miserable. I am hopeless. Nothing in my soul, or this universe for all I know, can ever bring her back, and nobody could ever feel this pain that I feel.
I am angry. I want to go into the code of this game and fuck with it that's how angry I am. Like this thing is nothing, why do I sit here and not fuck with it when it is NOTHING and doesn't even feel pain? I will even pay you good money so that I can go into the code and fuck around with it, maybe make it so people can't kill me. Fuck this stupid earth for existing in the first place, please tell me I'm wrong and I will debate you and win. Life is pain and torment and I sure as hell want to take it out on something. Please do me the honor. 50 grand take it or leave it.
hey guys....
i have some tragic bnews : yesterday my girlfriend of 6 years, we were about to be married on Christmas Eve it was so romantic, tragically yesterday she died in a helicopter crash. According to the pilot she ejected herself. I am truly heartbroken that there was nothing I could do to stop it. I never thought that something like that could ever happen to me, and I feel so crushed. Why me. Why me. I haven't even been a perfect person, and yet this huge burden is put on me. I only had good intentions in my life but I did what I needed to survive, truly the world is a maddening place is it not? So I sit here, alone and totally changed, and why? God did this? I will bring this 'God' into question for ever and ever, how can there be a power that lets such a thing exist?! I feel like I'm going to become a buddhist monk or something, because there are other parts of my story you do not know, as I said I'm not a perfect person. Pain, I feel pain. Yet nothing hit me. Forever in my life my love to be is just a memory. It's been so long I don't even remember, was she real? The extent of my depression and agony knows no bounds, truly I am changed from this day forward. I am angry. I am miserable. I am hopeless. Nothing in my soul, or this universe for all I know, can ever bring her back, and nobody could ever feel this pain that I feel.
I am angry. I want to go into the code of this game and fuck with it that's how angry I am. Like this thing is nothing, why do I sit here and not fuck with it when it is NOTHING and doesn't even feel pain? I will even pay you good money so that I can go into the code and fuck around with it, maybe make it so people can't kill me. Fuck this stupid earth for existing in the first place, please tell me I'm wrong and I will debate you and win. Life is pain and torment and I sure as hell want to take it out on something. Please do me the honor. 50 grand take it or leave it.
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