I want to take a page from Liquid and start a serious thread, which in this case is this one here, so please take this rather seriously because I am looking for opinions and such.
Recently(couple months now or so) I accepted Christianity in my life, asked for forgiveness, trying to change my life for the better, etc etc. Have not visited Church yet, not sure if it's because 'm uneasy since the only times 've ever been to Church were against my desire to, or if 'm not comfortable with that step yet(I don't think I have enough faith and strength in myself to just walk into a Church and be like "hey how ya doin?"), though I have started reading the Bible, 5 chapters a day(try to anyway, sometimes I fall asleep before I do or I just am not in the mood to read) that my gf, Abigail got for me(she's Christian, hence why she got it). I keep doubting myself though, one thing I always talked with Abby about with is like "how do I pray, is there a certain way, what if 'm doing it wrong" etc etc, because to use a term heard widely in this game, I feel like a "newbie" to this path I wish to take.
Anyway, one thing that 'm kind of... I don't know, uncertain about is, 'm an artist as a few of you know, and I hate censorship, I am truly against people covering up works of art or movies because it has something to do with nudity or sex/sexuality. And I know a lot of Christians and most all religions are against nudity and sex/sexuality in any regard, especially if it's out in the open(art is what I mean mostly), which makes me think sometimes if I am doing something wrong. Also, I have never ever had a problem with nudity or sex/sexuality, while yes Abby and I are waiting for marriage I don't shield my eyes from nudity or porn, though I have felt the need to ask for understanding and forgiveness after watching porn, but not nudity... maybe 'm weird I don't know.
Guess 'm just trying to figure somethings out, I know there are Christians on this board, perhaps some Catholics too, so 'm looking for some answers that I perhaps can't find within myself or 'm not comfortable with asking people I know about(I do ask Abby though but 'd rather not be like "hey grandma I have a question for you"). I know I will prolly be flammed in this thread but oh well, price you pay I guess when looking for answers and opinions. But my main question is about how my feelings on art, specifically my own, and censorship should be, do they need to be changed or is it ok to still think like you used to? I used to also believe in love before sex, and 've loved a few people in my 22 years, but after having fell for Abby in this year and a half we've had I know that she's the only one whom I want to be with and I wish I hadn't done some of the things with other people before her, so that she really could have everything(won't go into detail about this).
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Also, 've never had a problem with people or myself cursing, I just look at them as words, 've never told anyone to stop cussing or stopped myself from cussing... so any thoughts on that as well?
Recently(couple months now or so) I accepted Christianity in my life, asked for forgiveness, trying to change my life for the better, etc etc. Have not visited Church yet, not sure if it's because 'm uneasy since the only times 've ever been to Church were against my desire to, or if 'm not comfortable with that step yet(I don't think I have enough faith and strength in myself to just walk into a Church and be like "hey how ya doin?"), though I have started reading the Bible, 5 chapters a day(try to anyway, sometimes I fall asleep before I do or I just am not in the mood to read) that my gf, Abigail got for me(she's Christian, hence why she got it). I keep doubting myself though, one thing I always talked with Abby about with is like "how do I pray, is there a certain way, what if 'm doing it wrong" etc etc, because to use a term heard widely in this game, I feel like a "newbie" to this path I wish to take.
Anyway, one thing that 'm kind of... I don't know, uncertain about is, 'm an artist as a few of you know, and I hate censorship, I am truly against people covering up works of art or movies because it has something to do with nudity or sex/sexuality. And I know a lot of Christians and most all religions are against nudity and sex/sexuality in any regard, especially if it's out in the open(art is what I mean mostly), which makes me think sometimes if I am doing something wrong. Also, I have never ever had a problem with nudity or sex/sexuality, while yes Abby and I are waiting for marriage I don't shield my eyes from nudity or porn, though I have felt the need to ask for understanding and forgiveness after watching porn, but not nudity... maybe 'm weird I don't know.
Guess 'm just trying to figure somethings out, I know there are Christians on this board, perhaps some Catholics too, so 'm looking for some answers that I perhaps can't find within myself or 'm not comfortable with asking people I know about(I do ask Abby though but 'd rather not be like "hey grandma I have a question for you"). I know I will prolly be flammed in this thread but oh well, price you pay I guess when looking for answers and opinions. But my main question is about how my feelings on art, specifically my own, and censorship should be, do they need to be changed or is it ok to still think like you used to? I used to also believe in love before sex, and 've loved a few people in my 22 years, but after having fell for Abby in this year and a half we've had I know that she's the only one whom I want to be with and I wish I hadn't done some of the things with other people before her, so that she really could have everything(won't go into detail about this).
EDIT:
Also, 've never had a problem with people or myself cursing, I just look at them as words, 've never told anyone to stop cussing or stopped myself from cussing... so any thoughts on that as well?
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