I asked this on another forum, and here is a reply I got that I think is worth sharing. I replied to his post, and I thought I might as well put it here too.
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Undies, you rock man. I didn't even realize half the shit in your post until I read it, strong stuff man. I'll answer the ones I think I can answer, some though I still don't know the answers to.
I want to animate, recreate life and be a story teller. I want to recreate strong emotions and scenes that I've either witnessed or experienced before, and I want to expand the outlook on a variety of things, I want people to either be awed or left thinking after watching my stuff, or both if I'm lucky.
What do you think you are? A leader, a brainiac, a rebel, a smart-ass, a thinker, a fighter, what? (you don't have to stick to one classification, I know it would be impossible to be 100% anything)
Well like I siad before, I'm partly a leader, but I'm also partly a recovering introvert, a thinker (too much thinking sometimes obviously) , a caretaker, a connector.
I don't know, listening to music and imaging my animations right now is about it. I guess maybe working with my hands (example, when I'm changing a car's oil at my job and there is no one else around, it's pretty relaxing).
What do you cherish?
Honest, open relationships. Not just with my girlfriend, but my friends and my sister. Connections with people, I guess since I'm not close to any of my family besides my sister.
Why do you get out of bed every morning?
I just think back on the times that I've helped people, or just been the ear that they needed, and the expressions on their faces- genuine gratitude.
What do you think you're going to do with your life?
I have the dream of going to Cali and getting picked up by a big animation studio (disney's new 2d department, cross fingers), but I honestly don't know how it's all going to end up. I was supposed to be saving money to move over there for when I graduated from college and got a job, but so far I haven't saved up a single dime- there's always a ticket to pay or gas to buy or something. Always one thing after another, it also kind of worries me how I can't seem to do things in moderation, like when I animate I hardcore it for like a week and get next to no sleep, or I don't animate at all for like 2 weeks at a time.
What are your goals?
To move people with my imagination. To make them think, to make them cry, to make them feel alive.
What do you think makes you, you?
My imagination, my humor, my quick wit. My drawing style.
What are your fears?
I'm not as afraid of dying alone as I thought I would be, but I've been "alone" for a good part of my life so I guess I'm just used to it. My biggest fear would have to be turning out like my mother and wasting my life away after a certain point. She does nothing but bitch and complain and live in a state of denial, compensating for the lack of love in her life by imagining that she's constantly being hounded by people that don't give two shits about her and have moved on with their lives. I would hate to end up not doing anything with my life- each moment, each breath, each tear, each smile is a gift, and I don't want them to go to waste. I say this yet I go through too many days passing off homework, sleeping too much and not doing what I supposedly love, animating.
It's starting to worry me, animating. I love seeing my creations move and yet I have such a hard time sitting down and actually just animating. Why can't I just plug a usb cord into my brain and automatically bring the stuff in my head to everyone else? It'd be so much easier...but anything worth having is worth working for, I know this, I know all this advice that I've given people time and time again, yet I can't seem to follow it myself. I'd say that I love the result and not the process, but I love tweaking my animations and actually seeing my imagination hit the paper- the process is something else I love about it, so why is it so hard to sit down and start? Why do I have these awesome ideas running around in my head, how am I able to bring drawings to life yet I can't seem to communicate or connect as well with the people at my school and job? Sheesh, there's another pandora's box- I can't even connect with the people I'm around of most of the time, even though I'm all about helping and connecting with people. Alot of the time I feel like it's winter and I'm outside a house looking in at a family unwrapping their christmas presents and enjoying spending time together, I'm almost always on the outside looking in, when I'm inside it seems like it's only for a second, never for too long to truly enjoy the warmth. More later I guess, I have no clue.
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Undies, you rock man. I didn't even realize half the shit in your post until I read it, strong stuff man. I'll answer the ones I think I can answer, some though I still don't know the answers to.
Originally posted by Undies
What do you think you are? A leader, a brainiac, a rebel, a smart-ass, a thinker, a fighter, what? (you don't have to stick to one classification, I know it would be impossible to be 100% anything)
What makes you feel alive?
What do you cherish?
Why do you get out of bed every morning?
What do you think you're going to do with your life?
What are your goals?
What do you think makes you, you?
What are your fears?
It's starting to worry me, animating. I love seeing my creations move and yet I have such a hard time sitting down and actually just animating. Why can't I just plug a usb cord into my brain and automatically bring the stuff in my head to everyone else? It'd be so much easier...but anything worth having is worth working for, I know this, I know all this advice that I've given people time and time again, yet I can't seem to follow it myself. I'd say that I love the result and not the process, but I love tweaking my animations and actually seeing my imagination hit the paper- the process is something else I love about it, so why is it so hard to sit down and start? Why do I have these awesome ideas running around in my head, how am I able to bring drawings to life yet I can't seem to communicate or connect as well with the people at my school and job? Sheesh, there's another pandora's box- I can't even connect with the people I'm around of most of the time, even though I'm all about helping and connecting with people. Alot of the time I feel like it's winter and I'm outside a house looking in at a family unwrapping their christmas presents and enjoying spending time together, I'm almost always on the outside looking in, when I'm inside it seems like it's only for a second, never for too long to truly enjoy the warmth. More later I guess, I have no clue.
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