Hi. I was a nerd 3 years ago when I first started college. Not kinda nerdy, like mad nerd that wore videogame shirts and was weak/skinny as shit at around 125-130 pounds.I sat in the back of the class and didn't talk to alot of kids, but was tired of how things were going. In 2004 I started working out, and started opening up and talking to people.
Maybe a year and a half ago I had bumped up to 140, I still wore stupid shit (grew a stache so I didn't look like I was 15 anymore) although I slowly started to reach out more in classes. Fast forward to now and I'm at 150, wearing clothes that fit, and am consistently finding myself in the center of conversations, or people asking me for my number so we can hang out. I've had 7 conversations with complete strangers in the past 2 days. 3 years ago I wouldn't have had 7 in two months, much less 2 days. People just come up and talk to me, or I just start asking them this or that and they open up and we're in a convo for the next 15 mins. It's strange as shit when I look back at how I was, and you know what?
I want more.
I've come so far from where I was, but I want to go even farther, and I realized that today. This isn't a topic that is just for stroking my ego, I have mirrors when I need to jack off. What I'm trying to do with this topic is let you know that self-improvement (and moreso realizing how much you've improved) is such an empowering thing, such an addictive feeling. Sucess is addictive friends, and it gives you a better and long-lasting high than any weed or blowjob that you could imagine. I've preached here before about improving in terms of my art but while I've talked a bit about the social aspect, I haven't really given you a glimpse as to how far I have come in terms of social and physical ability, and I think it won't really hit you until you have a concrete example to base all this off on.
Case in point, guy around my age walked up to me while I was eating lunch on a bench at work, and said he was having one of those days. I struck up a convo with him, and one of the most important things I remember him saying was that " he hated seeing guys with talent that had no drive ".
Everyone has talent. I'm not trying to belittle his point, but everyone has something they are good at, and he's right- it's a damn shame to see people that obviously have talent, let it go to waste. I realized a few years ago that I want to help inspire people to strive for more, to strive for better, and realized a little later that the best way to do this was to provide an example for them. Let's be realistic, you can't get any better without making mistakes, and some mistakes might be embarrassing, but I've come to find out one thing
-ironically, every failure, every mistake makes me feel more alive than just doing the sameold shit I've always done.
I want more, the soul burns for it.
Maybe a year and a half ago I had bumped up to 140, I still wore stupid shit (grew a stache so I didn't look like I was 15 anymore) although I slowly started to reach out more in classes. Fast forward to now and I'm at 150, wearing clothes that fit, and am consistently finding myself in the center of conversations, or people asking me for my number so we can hang out. I've had 7 conversations with complete strangers in the past 2 days. 3 years ago I wouldn't have had 7 in two months, much less 2 days. People just come up and talk to me, or I just start asking them this or that and they open up and we're in a convo for the next 15 mins. It's strange as shit when I look back at how I was, and you know what?
I want more.
I've come so far from where I was, but I want to go even farther, and I realized that today. This isn't a topic that is just for stroking my ego, I have mirrors when I need to jack off. What I'm trying to do with this topic is let you know that self-improvement (and moreso realizing how much you've improved) is such an empowering thing, such an addictive feeling. Sucess is addictive friends, and it gives you a better and long-lasting high than any weed or blowjob that you could imagine. I've preached here before about improving in terms of my art but while I've talked a bit about the social aspect, I haven't really given you a glimpse as to how far I have come in terms of social and physical ability, and I think it won't really hit you until you have a concrete example to base all this off on.
Case in point, guy around my age walked up to me while I was eating lunch on a bench at work, and said he was having one of those days. I struck up a convo with him, and one of the most important things I remember him saying was that " he hated seeing guys with talent that had no drive ".
Everyone has talent. I'm not trying to belittle his point, but everyone has something they are good at, and he's right- it's a damn shame to see people that obviously have talent, let it go to waste. I realized a few years ago that I want to help inspire people to strive for more, to strive for better, and realized a little later that the best way to do this was to provide an example for them. Let's be realistic, you can't get any better without making mistakes, and some mistakes might be embarrassing, but I've come to find out one thing
-ironically, every failure, every mistake makes me feel more alive than just doing the sameold shit I've always done.
I want more, the soul burns for it.
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